Fears

For quite some time now I notice many people consider Fear as an enemy we should fight, even now, a good friend of mine, who is living a life which to be adored and admired I must say, shared on Facebook that fear no longer serves her, even though going through her fears taught her a lot about herself and brought her to a life, which like I said, I admire and take my hat off for.

When I was young, I was very much afraid of many things, scared of what might happen each and every day for I never felt safe growing up in the Kibbutz I was living in, so when I first started practicing change, I didn't realize that is what I was doing, I was simply reacting to a fear I suddenly had, and immediately started working on preparing myself for the option of my fear actually becoming a reality. Ever since then I paid a lot of attention on finding where I felt fear, or any other uncomfortable feeling, and started working on improving my self esteem and the way I felt about myself. That alone improved my life, for time after time, I noticed where I didn't feel good, and worked on feeling better. That is why I consider Fear as one of, if not the best, my best friends and guides. It always showed me where I feel bad, so I found it way easier on what I should pay attention and send my energy on improving. Paying attention has its costs, yes, yet what I received in return was always my best Return On Investment.

I would like to share with you something I wrote some time ago in the beginning of this year, and I think that is the best ROI I ever had, especially when it comes to the area of fears.
I just had it translated from Hebrew, so I hope you will forgive any mistakes you might find.
Hope you like it!

The Adoption of Fear

When I first started exploring Fear at the age of 12,

I didn't know it at the time,

That I was actually adopting it into my heart.

Today,

After 21 years of research and examination,

I finally realize,

That by adopting Fear

I actually developed courage.

Fear wasn't an easy kid to be adopted,

Lots of bureaucracy and paper work,

Less knowledge about how to raise him and such,

Only that the will to know him,

To understand him,

To be there, for him as well,

The will which came from an unconscious understanding at the time,

Was bigger than me,

And it took me on the path,

Which may wasn't easy

Yet after some time,

I began seeing fruits I didn't know,

I began seeing the fruits which grew from my love

To what many people see as the complete opposite,

The love to Fear.

Whoever know my parents,

Probably knows how many kids they had adopted throughout the years,

To how many kids,

Young as adults,

They gave a home,

I probably learned that from them.

Along the years I was told by many how brave I am,

And I never really understood what they are talking about,

For I did what I did

Because I couldn't live in fear,

I just couldn't.

I didn't understand why anyone would want to live in such an awful feeling,

Such a disturbing feeling,

Which annoys,

Which holds us back from living in love.

So I adopted Fear to myself,

The same part which I couldn't push away and prevent,

I adopted him to my heart,

For I saw no one else doing it,

And in some deep place,

I felt sort of pity,

Of compassion,

To that same emotion which may be disturbing,

Only he,

Like anyone of us,

Is also asking to find himself a home.

Today,

Like I said,

Finally,

I understand that he will be a part of my life,

And that I shouldn't push him away,

And hope he will disappear.

Today I understand,

That all that I have to do,

Is to love Fear

And to adopt him into my heart.

I recommend very much to do so,

For even if he is quite the naughty kid,

Which sometimes ask for attention we have none in spare,

He is a smart kid,

A wise one,

And on top of all,

He is one of the best guides I could have ever asked for,

To a life filled with love.