Family

What a topic... It always has been such an issue for me, yet today, after working on it for years, exploring what it means for me, participating in many self help workshops with it being my main issue, I've come to the point where I learned to love them.
It wasn't easy, I can tell you that, having so many complains against them, about how they raised me, what kind of beliefs they inserted in me and much more,  yet after all these years, I've come to point where I can see them from a different perspective, a different perspective from the teenager I once was, the angry teenager, the rebellious teenager, I've come to the point where I can see them from their perspective. And what a joy that is...

Today I am putting a lot of energy into improving our relationship, from the relationship with my parents to the relationship with each one of my brothers and sister. It's still a working process, changing a relationship which once was based on fear and anger to a one which is based on love and respect takes its time, yet already after a month and a half or so, the fruits begin to show, and what delicious fruits they are :-)

Yesterday my uncle, aunt and most of their family came for a short visit. I haven't seen them for couple of years (two of my cousins I haven't seen for way longer) and it was great being with them, talking to them face to face and hearing from them about their lives. Yet what took my attention at some point was what an amazing kind of family I have, such a different, unique, special and my kind of family I have. I had always been considered by many who know me as different, I just never knew what it means to be "normal", and suddenly, after realising what kind of family I come from, it made perfect sense. Of course I'm not normal, nobody in my family is!! And what a wondrous thing that is! Such uniqueness, such specialty, such.... Love for life!!!
I really do love my family these days, and it is such a huge change for me, realising where I come from and loving my sources.

If anybody ever asked me how could they change their lives for good, that would be one of my main and first things I would put my finger on, changing the relationship with the family. It is the source, where we come from, and who would probably stay in our lives for as long as we live. It is not a must of course, I know now I was blessed with a very loving family which I just had trouble accepting, yet if it's possible, if they are still there and in any way possible to reach, I would say simply this: loving ourselves is also loving the very source which we came from.

Today, after so many years of anger and hate, I, truly, love my family.

Love to you all
And may peace guide your way.
Uriel