Feelings

Have you ever noticed how some feelings feel so good and yet some feel so bad? Don't you find that weird? I do.

I have always been very emotional, going from one to the next, some feel amazing and some feel terrible, and for years I have tried to understand why is that, why do we see, and because of that feel, some of them as good ones and some of them as bad ones.

Just before writing here I recorded another video for YouTube, which I am uploading as we speak, and just after, I felt like listening to "Breathe me" by Sia, which I find an absolute best song for feeling pain and sadness. So why would I want to feel that you might ask, well, that's exactly it, to FEEL!!!

I love feeling!! It is something which is way beyond me and unstoppable anyway, so why even bother trying to push it away from me or back down to my subconscious? Why try blocking something which is impossible to block and even if we managed to block it once or twice, eventually it will take us over and wash us with infinite amount of energy, so why even bother with trying blocking it in the first place?

As I was just listening to "Breathe me" I went straight away to my feeling zone, my place of safety, where I feel myself, where I allow myself to be, just be, and to feel that incredible emotion which rises from just listening to a beautiful song. Then it just came to me- there is absolutely NO wrong in feeling pain, sadness, anger, frustration, confusion and on top of all - Fear. I felt so alive from just listening to a song, I cried my eyes out and felt so good doing it I started laughing and enjoying it. I suddenly remembered how my parents always asked me: "What's wrong?" when I was crying, as if something was wrong in the first place, who said there's anything wrong? It's an emotion, something we feel, what can be wrong about that???

I love feeling, I love feeling life, feeling alive, and here's the thing, isn't that what everybody want? To feel and be alive? Just feel it, you are, just now, alive.